Unsettled Spirit

My spirit is so unsettled, and I don’t know why. It has been this way for several days now. I walk outside and look up the mountain as if I’m searching for something. But what could that be? The mountain is still covered with snow. The world around me is still asleep. Soon it will wake up and thrive in the warmth of the sunshine. But for now, it sleeps on.

God, I know you’re there. I feel your presence and see the evidence of your hands among the life around me. Despite man’s inhumanity, I feel the hope that you have instilled inside me. There is hope for the coming springtime, and there is hope for tomorrow. But for now, I seek you as a lost child searches for her parent. I turn to the Scriptures for answers, and I find:

I waited patiently for the Lord; and He inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.
And He hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.
Blessed is that man that maketh the Lord his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.
Many, O Lord my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto Thee: if I would declare and speak of them, the are more than can be numbered…

… I have not hid thy righteousness within my heart; I have declared thy faithfulness and thy salvation: I have not concealed thy lovingkindness and thy truth from the great congregation.
Withhold not thou thy tender mercies from me, O Lord: let thy lovingkindness and thy truth continually preserve me.
For innumerable evils have compassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me.
Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver me: O Lord, make haste to help me.
Let them be ashamed and confounded together that seek after my soul to destroy it; let them be driven backward and put to shame that wish me evil.
Let them be desolate for a reward of their shame that say unto me, Aha, aha.
Let all those that seek thee rejoice and be glad in thee: let such as love thy salvation say continually, The Lord be magnified.
But I am poor and needy; yet the Lord thinketh upon me: thou art my help and my deliverer; make not tarrying, O my God. (Psalm 40)

Have you ever had this feeling? The unsettled feelings – where you’re not sure if it’s foreboding, or simply a sense that you are lacking something in your life. What do you do? I pace. Inside … outside, I’m back and forth. I search the Scriptures in hopes that God will give me the answers to the unstated question in my spirit. In reading the 40th Chapter of Psalm I find that King David also felt as I do right now. The groaning of my spirit for peace is not new and unique to just me. Others have, and still do, experience what I am feeling right now. The “evil ones” that he talks about aren’t always people. How many times have we been attacked by satan’s minions with hateful thoughts, unclean desires, and selfish temptations? When we choose to follow the Lord and do His will, the demons of hell hate us and go on the attack.

What’s the solution? I’ve found that when I get these feelings of unrest and don’t know what to do, it’s time to draw into God. As soon as I can, I find a quiet place, pray, and earnestly seek Him until I find answers and peace. For me, the Lord requires me to take it a step further. I am told to share what I have found with others. Because someone else is going through the very thing I have experienced. If you are experiencing this, God says to come to Him. Draw in close and seek Him. He has comfort, guidance, and peace that He is waiting to give you.

Have a wonderful Lord’s day and may the Lord bless you!